Thursday, February 08, 2007written once at 4:09 PM
Random tots
Yep, this is the second post of the day ;] I think this post will be my thoughts instead of the usual summary of the days. Piano is on about 20 minutes time so yeah. It's rather dark outside and I think it's going to rain soon. Such weather is making me quite blue...
I noticed lately I'm being rather sarcastic. And the worst thing about it is that the people around me thinks that's my true self. Like whenever I say something sarcastic, they'll just take it as me saying it normally. It's weird how now I'm getting confused with some relationships. Or rather for this case, there is only one.
I'm quite lost now though. I'm not too sure whether I really like this guy or do I like/love him as a close friend. I have a few of such guy friends that I really sayang but it's not that type of love. But in this guy's case, I'm just plain confused. Really, really confused.
Another thing is that I'm getting easily paranoid. Not that I wasn't in the past. But I really don't think I want to divulge in this topic anymore. I've decided that one of my resolutions for 2007 is that I'm going back to my roots. Regardless of singing BoA's songs or specifically for this is that I'm going back to my olddddddddddd innocent happy-go-lucky self ;DD Instead of drowning in my own self-pity and fear+worry+what not making me such an unhappy person. I think I would rather be what I was in the past. Relationships were good back then. Or was it because everyone was as naive as I was? But whatever. I will really go accordingly to what I plan. Besides, GSG's 2007 motto;
Don't Know Don't Care.
So yeah, as Shu said earlier >>
Innocent + Happy-Go-Lucky + DKDC = A Happy Michele
I really don't like the feeling of it when I feel insecure? Like I've picked up a certain pattern this certain friend have. And when this friend doesn't acts/speaks accordingly, I'll waver on my stand. Then I'll have weird thoughts of whether our relationship has changed, do I have an attitude problem, was I too rude, was that person being bad to me etc etc. It sucks isn't it.
But either way, anticipate my new self! Or rather, the reincarnation of the old Mish ;]
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