Friday, April 13, 2007written once at 12:56 PM
Fikiran Melayang
Yes, as stated in the topic title today, my fikiran sudah melayang. I have no idea why but I am suddenly transported into the future; WAY WAY future. Probably half a century and more? [oh come, be more realistic; if its more than a century I'll prolly be 6 feet underground already] Where my brain isn't functioning as well as it should. I'm forgetting things TOO easily. One moment my brain registers that I have to check someone's [farah] blog, the next moment when I open mozilla, I forgot what I wanted to do. Sheesh.
Had a talk with my mom last night. I'm starting to have doubts on whatever I wanna do with future [as usual]. I'm starting to doubt whether do I really have not only the qualification but the ABILITY to go for whatever I want. But then again, I don't even know what I want now. I used to think that I'm a person that can talk talk talk; talk so well until I can easily get my way around people. But now... I'm starting to realized; gee. no.
And another thing is that my dreams/desires to get into Mass Comm / Hotel Management just seem to die away. Apparently, I've lost interest due to the amount of stress I foresee. Judging from whatever I've been given to do now [or actually nothing to be exact] and yet still feel so much fear; I really don't know myself anymore...
Meaningless post, I know. But I had to make matters clear for myself. Till then.
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