Friday, January 22, 2010written once at 11:28 PM
Sighs.
Should update about whatever that happened on Thurs night but I think I'll leave that for tomorrow. The pimple is becoming horrible. Oh my face~ *devastated*
Had a head-on between the iron and the toes. Poor toes. It feels slightly swollen; making it almost difficult to curve it back in X_X
When I thought I had a mad week last week, this week was madder. Back home, it's way madder. Mad, madder, maddest. Does such a word exist? Hur. The mercurial level of patience; flaring of emotional volcanoes; sizzling tempers; demanding wants and orders... Who is going to listen and understand? When one does, who understands that one?
On a happier note; there's so much food! Oh the joy~
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Thursday, January 21, 2010written once at 11:11 AM
Clouded Mind.
I found myself extra excited and totally anticipating the morning as I decided to sleep last night. I was even happier when my roommate added on the fire by asking if I was excited about eating breakfast the next morning. Then I got even more hyper when I suddenly thought of something to tell her in secret. The silliest part was when I couldn't drift off because my mind was on so many things. But I did anyway and when I jumped up at 4.34AM; I realized I had dreamt of something that surprised/shocked the life outta me. Ask me when you see me. It involved two boys and me. From UM, and yes, my college. No, they are not gay.
That was it. I couldn't fall asleep after that anymore hoho. Tossed and turned; heard the random mumblings of another roommate; heard the endless alarm/ringing/sms tone of another roommate; wondered what time the other roommate was going to wake up... Finally I was up at 6.55AM. Harhar.
I was probably so excited because it's just one more day [but lesser] to be able to go home and eat the promised SUBWAY! No not the train of course ;D But it's the uber delicious [big] sandwich ze dad has promised to buyyy~ Awesomeee.
Went to watch the girls' basketball training yesterday evening ;D Saw someone and someone. Makes me wondered if there's something between them. Hmm~ Went off to 1st College after that with some collegemates to watch ze basketball. Sooooo exciting ;D Too bad 9th only lost to Puspita by 2 points. Was hoping there would be extra timeee! Then we could've watched it moaarr.
But I think one of the more significant things that happened yesterday kinda warmed the dead heart. But is it truly a dead heart? Was it even dead from the start? Perhaps it wasn't even dead but just clouded; by another feeling? Another thought? And how warm those words actually were? Or was it all just in the mind?
Self hallucination?
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Tuesday, January 19, 2010written once at 11:01 AM
Pain in the ______
Ass. Not literally because some people in the class just don't own even a puny brain and little common sense to cover their mouth when they cough. Because some people refuses to come to class everyday and listen to the lecturer to know what's going on and just conveniently plants herself into a group who has already almost finished the work. How absolutely awesomely convenient~! Splendid! Marvelous! Full marks d. Pfft.
Finger. I decided to obediently use the pantry to wash my bottle only to find that the tap was so bloody difficult to turn. I tried, tried, and tried but I failed so I gave up and walked back to the toilet to wash it. When I turned my hand I saw a (big) streak of blood across my middle finger. Assuming it was nothing; I just washed off the blood and went back to my room. UNTIL I FELT THE WOUND OPEN. It freaked me out! Like totally O_O Ze roommate told me to put plaster after I showered. I was about to agree when we saw the gaping wound. AAAAHHH! It's pretty deep. But I think I'm too shocked to know how pain it is xP
Something. Because there's no where specific. But my towel is latt mou-ing x_x
My left eye keeps twitching.
Heart. Still haven't seen him this week. Lalala~
Okay la the last line was pretty much not needed but I like ma! Bleh this post is not good. Filled with complains. I should learn how to appreciate more. Stuff like I slept pretty well last night ;D And had a nice talk with someone <3
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Saturday, January 16, 2010written once at 10:18 PM
Korean Party!
Went with Natalie and the SCB to this Korean party held at the First Baptist Church. Am really loving how I stun the Koreans with my absolutely limited and long forgotten Korean x] The praise and worship was awesome. The two boys were such amazing vocalists. Too bad I didn't record it T.T Yeah, that was one regret. He really sang so so so damn well! Then the performances were really interesting and amusing. Imagine Taekwondo done with WG's Nobody LOL. Then there was this really inspiring skit. Should have recorded that too xP Ask me someday to tell you what was it about ;D The testimonials almost moved me to tears at some point because I sorta understood bits and pieces of the Korean [it came with a translated version but like the SCB said; there was no feel in the English version].
Ate delicious kimbap and tokpokki with a second round of kimbap x]. After that, with the specially trained over time thick skins, we shamelessly ran around taking pictures with the Koreans we felt were gorgeous XD Tried on the Hanbok and took pictures. Urged Nat on to be less shy and take more pictures with our own special theory XD Inspired by Joshua; we went the second time to the same people to get contacts hee hee~
It was a damn fun outing and I'm already missing them. Wishing them a safe trip home! Can't wait to see the pictures. And a piece of advice from me; make sure you do the things you want now and not regret it later for not doing it but make sure it doesn't hurt anyone of course ;D
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Friday, January 15, 2010written once at 3:57 PM
I must.
I haven't had this sort of tiredness for quite a while already; where not only your body aches but every other element in you. It makes things worse when you are down with a horrible flu during the busiest week ever. Suddenly everything starts crumbling down. God gives me fluctuating surprises that I don't know how to react to them anymore. I should stop assuming and just get to the point and get on with it.
This week, I try too hard to please everyone. I try to fit every schedule possible. I should learn how to say 'No'. I try to make sure I do and go for the stuff I want so I wouldn't be regretting it later. But I find lesser and lesser time for myself. Not to mention the lack of rest. I feel like the limit is coming upon me pretty soon. Once it finds me I really don't know how long it'll take me to get back on my feet to stand once again.
I'm so glad that at least there are at least two people who understands how important certain things are to me even though in general it totally isn't. I'm so thankful for roommates who are probably the only people who know how tired and sick I am though I would prefer to not admit it because I am doing it by choice. I'm the one making the decisions right?
I try, to greet everyone with a smile each and every day. I need to have the right mindset and heart. I need to find time to rest.
I need to drive.
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Wednesday, January 13, 2010written once at 1:44 PM
Everyday.
I am blogging.
Because I suddenly realized there is really nothing much to do online apart from fb and emails when there is no one to talk to you online. But then again, it's also probably most of my fault because I don't like the idea of signing on my MSN in the comp lab. The time is currently 12.46pm and my eyes can barely open. I have another class at 2. Already pulled through 5 hours earlier. I have this one subject this sem that I reckon is worse than Add Maths. First I understand nuts, second I don't know what the subject wants, third; I don't know what I am supposed to do. Everytime the lecturer asks are there any questions; the only thing in my head would be... I don't understand whatever I need to ask because of not understanding...
Oh save me.
It's basketball competition for boys today! Wee! Am gonna rush over after class and rush back for Excel. Finally a nice good sleep at home. Hopefully the sorethroat would've went away. I mean, the pain has been gone after one day [after 8 biji of ACT xP] but the cough is here. Was a tad worried yesterday because went supper with cc mama and drank this sup daging [that has chilly and lots of pepper XD] but I still managed to keep my voice so today is another round of 8 biji of ACT.
Can't wait to see the basketball game. Was conned by the other twin tower last night. He told us the other colleges were playing basketball [and we could go see to kap zai] but nooo~ when the roommate and I went there; there wasn't a sound... and it was all darrrk. Creepy.
I'm really talking nonsense now, no? Gah I think I'll nap a bit before going anywhere later. Hopefully this cough goes away by evening. My voice is already wonky enough XD
Fight-oh!
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Tuesday, January 12, 2010written once at 2:35 PM
448 ;D
So congrats blog! This is your 448th post ;D
I had lots to say earlier but I can barely remember anything now unfortunately. The usual I suppose. Life so far has been pretty... tough along with the sorethroat that is acting up right now. Bleh I shall attempt to be stronger. Don't like how being sick makes you feel weak and just want to be in someone's care.
I need to be strongerrr. It's gonna be a freaking busy week, but most of it... is what I chose.
So Mish... FIGHT-OH!
p/s: wish I had something better to say to celebrate the 448 post but all I really wanna do now is actually go home and curl under the covers to sleep T.T <3
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Sunday, January 10, 2010written once at 9:08 PM
JIN
No it's not the Akanishi that you and I both know [and I love XD]. It's that medical/historical drama that was out not too long ago. Was introduced to it by a coursemate and was hooked since I started x] It's a very very good drama I reckon; very interesting and it has its fair share of comedic elements due to the confusion of words/things from the modern world in the Edo period [read synopsis for more information xD]
This upcoming week is gonna be another battle. I really honestly seriously feel God is giving me lots of challenges despite the lack of classes (and credit hours). First I have to face that ex-FIS, now I have to face FIS [yes there's a new one -.-] in my tutorial. It's... amazing, really. But I suppose I could use the line mentioned in JIN; God only gave us challenges/trials so that we can overcome them.
Friday is gonna be insanely busy.
I hope there'll be more basketball/pingpong watching to do XD Fight-oh!
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Saturday, January 09, 2010written once at 4:01 PM
Weekly update.
Been filling the days up with basketball watching and lots of talking with a random insertion of pingpong watching because of YP.
And the heart faces another dilemma.
I'll try to do more ;D
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Thursday, January 07, 2010written once at 11:08 AM
xP
I don't know when I or you will ever bother showing that we care.
Who is colder?
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Tuesday, January 05, 2010written once at 12:25 PM
T.T
Did I ever tell you that you cloud my mind all the time?
I can't seem to think straight when you're around.
And when you're not, I miss you.
Shit.
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Saturday, January 02, 2010written once at 5:31 PM
First post of 2010? XD
Anyway I'm here to announce that Pentagonic is officially DONE! Completed with 212 pages and 84 thousand something words. Now how amazing I am? For those who don't know, Pentagonic is my fanfiction ;D If you don't know what is that; it's stories. And yes, I write.
Was reading the LYF blog and she sorta inspired me to insert pictures in this blog you know? But for all we know, in a thousand years to come my blog only seem to have a pic or two xP I'm sorry about that hoho.
Anyway, uni has started for a week already. Only stayed a night in college so far. Haven't seen a certain someone. I kinda miss you, you know? Kinda. Brr... I don't quite like how insecure this feels and all at the same time I feel like I'm shrinking back into this hole of zero faith and loss. Perhaps I should work hard on becoming a better friend instead.
I know I had many more things to say but I seem to be able to express myself lately so I guess... there'll be more posts to come xD
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Friday, January 01, 2010written once at 10:38 AM
Goodbye 2009, Hello 2010.
Was inspired by the sifu to list out what certain thing happened throughout the decade of my life. But pardon my brain if I ter-left out anything for this brain ain't capable in storing much xP
1. 2000. Wow. Just standard 5. The start of being competitive and going crazy over 0.01% of average marks.
2. 2001. UPSR hoho. Where SKTM got the highest 'A' scorers. I'll never forget that line the new headmistress said. Please la. おかげさまじゃない！
3. Secondary years starts in SMKTS. Got uber close with FW <3
4. Met my fair share of Kpop stars. The first and foremost was Dongbang hoho [super up close okayyy]. Now that was an awesome memory x] Still have yet to see Shinhwa though x_x They always seem to have something during my BIG exams. [e.g: SPM trials, SPM, STPM mid terms, STPM...]
5. As I quote the sifu, the rise and fall of a kingdom. Another rise and fall. But I did learn a lot. Gained quite a lot of common sense and general knowledge that not many people of my age has [which I realized somehow heh heh xP] OF <3>
6. Climbed up the ladder rung by rung in the hierarchy of Green House [puhaha!] Got closer with the Martians; Chanel and Dongers, thanks for always being there. Fell hard for a one sided love. Okay la like. Puppy love okay?
7. Did F6. Had an fantabulously crazy time with awesome people. Claimed many relationships [husband, affair, mistress, honey, darling, everything, etc]. Curse words became funny words. Gained another damn good friend who married my leg and hand and who listens to my concert and shits. Thank you LYF <3
8. Exchanged with the SCB our music lifestyles. But am still floating between both along with VK. Giru and SID. Thank you to the sifu for introducing so many awesome bands! Got closer with the roomie with A9 <3
9. Improved in fics and graphics hoho!
10. Masuk UM. Scored a super high CGPA [for my own record] and don't know about maintaining it the next few sems. Am crushing on someone I barely know xP My Mandarin/Canto (and Malay probably) has improved a great deal. English (and Korean) going down the drain.
10 things for the 10 years. Tadaa~
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